well my work day went well, then shit hit the fan; my check has been delayed another week but no big deal to them "we are sorry you should have it next wed we are not sure what happened" I'm not upset with melody but its BS next wed is the 31 guess what if I don't have all the money on the 30th then I lose the house great I have worked hard busted my ass to try to keep this house after that ........ never mind left me with nothing and in a hole over my head.
now because some f...ing thief stole my money out of the bank made me 1 day late "sorry but we have to have the whole amount no partial payments in 15 days " oops then this shit.
I guess I really did some bad stuff for karma to kick my ass like this or maybe its the 1000's and 1000's of mirrors I've broke or just maybe I'm an asshole who's getting what he deserves yea that's it heard that plenty of times in my life.
but on the other hand as upset as i am I'm still determined to make this life saving change in my life. didn't beng eat just thought i hope we don't lose power in the upcoming hurricane so my juicer will work. wish me luck
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
August 23, 2011
well today has been a great day, first time in over a hundred years the state of Virginia had a 5.9 earthquake and I didn't even get to feel it! well as far as my goals and plans they are as follows I'm not really sure how much I should weigh so I'm thinking like 225-250 lbs don't wanna look retarded little tiny body huge head, I would like to get my cholesterol were it needs to be my blood sugar and get off these blood pressure medicine improve my breathing and ability to do whatever I want. Really to give you areal idea of physically what I want I would love to be able to go to the beach and take my shirt off without anybody pushing me into deeper water and throwing water on me to keep me from drying out; really I would like to just be able to take my shirt off and nobody even notice one way or the other not looking to be some stone sculpture.
So here's my plan I'm gonna juice for 60 days begin an exercise program such as walking biking playing outside with my kids anything but just sit on my ass as I lose the weight and am able to do more I am going to do just that. Then after the 60 days I'm gonna continue the exercise and eat more solid fruits and veggies add nuts and beans and other forms of protein as well as free range chicken very small portions of grass feed beef and wild caught fish, no sodas, coffee, Gatorade or anything except water that's gonna be rough just cause of the habit but I'll tell you whats gonna be the hardest think is no fast food. I would be willing to say I have eaten fast food everyday of my life since I can remember that is no BS and I don't mean just one time a day sometimes two or three and depending if I'm bored or depressed or just not in a good mood I will and have eaten two or three combos large at a time the problem is i feel down the food makes me feel better then after I've eaten maybe half I'm full but then it kicks in you spent all this money on the food your not gonna waste it so I eat it then so full I wish I was dead and go crawl in the bed.
I'm not a dumb person or at least I don't think I am so every time I do it I tell myself a bunch of lies about how I'm gonna change it and then its time to be hungry and I do it all over again.
This time is different I'm gonna do it no diet no fast fix just change of life to the right way of eating for me may not be for everyone but I want to live and more important I want to be happy while I'm alive.
So three more days and the juicing begins I cant wait!!
So here's my plan I'm gonna juice for 60 days begin an exercise program such as walking biking playing outside with my kids anything but just sit on my ass as I lose the weight and am able to do more I am going to do just that. Then after the 60 days I'm gonna continue the exercise and eat more solid fruits and veggies add nuts and beans and other forms of protein as well as free range chicken very small portions of grass feed beef and wild caught fish, no sodas, coffee, Gatorade or anything except water that's gonna be rough just cause of the habit but I'll tell you whats gonna be the hardest think is no fast food. I would be willing to say I have eaten fast food everyday of my life since I can remember that is no BS and I don't mean just one time a day sometimes two or three and depending if I'm bored or depressed or just not in a good mood I will and have eaten two or three combos large at a time the problem is i feel down the food makes me feel better then after I've eaten maybe half I'm full but then it kicks in you spent all this money on the food your not gonna waste it so I eat it then so full I wish I was dead and go crawl in the bed.
I'm not a dumb person or at least I don't think I am so every time I do it I tell myself a bunch of lies about how I'm gonna change it and then its time to be hungry and I do it all over again.
This time is different I'm gonna do it no diet no fast fix just change of life to the right way of eating for me may not be for everyone but I want to live and more important I want to be happy while I'm alive.
So three more days and the juicing begins I cant wait!!
Monday, August 22, 2011
August 22, 2011
well this is all new to me so be patient. ok Im 37 5'10 and a scale breaking 353lbs. I watched this movie Fat Sick and Nearly Dead and I thought thats me or at least how I feel, Its about a guy who changes the way he views and takes in food by juicing all fruits and veggies and thats all he eats for 60 days so my goal is to do the same to juice for 60 days then alter my entire way of eating and exercising.
So I ordered a professional juicer and bought the book the Juicing Bible I've done quite a bit of research on it and feel pretty confident I know what Im getting into or so I think. Due to the cleansing process I think im gonna wait til friday to start so I have the weekend to allow my body to adjust to it.
I have no doubts this isnt gonna be as easy as it sounds I have tried several other ways to lose the weight with minimal luck. but I truly believe if I dont do this and get this weight off I will never see my oldest graduate high school and the thought of that saddens me very much.
So I ordered a professional juicer and bought the book the Juicing Bible I've done quite a bit of research on it and feel pretty confident I know what Im getting into or so I think. Due to the cleansing process I think im gonna wait til friday to start so I have the weekend to allow my body to adjust to it.
I have no doubts this isnt gonna be as easy as it sounds I have tried several other ways to lose the weight with minimal luck. but I truly believe if I dont do this and get this weight off I will never see my oldest graduate high school and the thought of that saddens me very much.
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